CURRENT WEIGHT 250 lbs (6/24 weigh-in)
GOAL WEIGHT 190 lbs
Pouring rain so I did not work out again this morning. But my energy is coming back and I have to go to the hospital and get a lot of tests and meet with the doctors after.
My kids or wife still have not checked on me since I started blogging.
I just got back from hospital and worse than expected. I not only do I have hypothyroidism but I have fluid in my heart and… wait for it… three masses that look like cancer on my thyroid, stomach, and lung. After the docs told me I am crazy I am not opting for surgery or chemo. I am going to do this holistic and vegan. I am now hoping my diet not only rescues my depression but my ‘masses’. The wouldn’t say cancer but said likely cancerous. WTF?
When I told my wife she didn’t care. Didn’t offer to help. I am not sure why I should try and not just enjoy myself. I should booze and eat and fuck whores. What I am trying to live for? An empty studio apartment all alone. Suicide seems generous right about now. I am seeing the alternative medicine doctors and nurses next week. Maybe I don’t go and give up. I’ve had enough of this life.
Celery, raw broccoli, soaked and cooked lentils, warmed mushrooms and onions, cucumber,green peppers,and raw unsalted almonds. For dinner I had again my blend of some power greens, carrots, blue berries, and an apple.
On day five, 319 more to go after.