CURRENT WEIGHT 236.5 (7/8 weigh-in)
STARTING WEIGHT 250 lbs (6/24 weigh-in)
GOAL WEIGHT 190 lbs
I haven’t weighed myself because of my depression. I know I’ve lost quite a bit more weight.
I want to say I wear many masks. People at work see a caring, confident, motivated, happy man who loves his job and his co-workers. My family except my wife, son, and father don’t know I have cancer and only my sister knows I am getting divorced. Everyone else sees a happily married man who smiles and make jokes. But these are masks. Masks I wear well.
I cannot eat solids any more. Even a blueberry makes me nauseous. I have been juicing. I think the stomach tumor is the culprit. I haven’t felt any difference on the tumor on my lung or thyroid. I will find out if it got worse in a week. For now I am doing my weekly Vitamin intravenous treatments and veggie and fruit juices.
For now, I’ll just keep my mask on. I don’t want to drag others into my suffering. I remember how it traumatized my dad when my mom was dying of her cancer.
Twenty six days in, 296 more to go.
